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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:21

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He resisted the act ,that day.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why does Christianity push reconciliation after a partner cheats? Mine had a 7-year affair with someone half my age. He cheated and lied. He is not the same to me.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I have no regrets .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Where's the Civil War everyone on the left said would happen?

I waited trembling.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But, we were locked up after school.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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I said to her

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Why is my crush beautiful to me but not to others?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

This is soul school!.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Why would my ex block me after I blocked him?

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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All the time i was locked up.

She wouldn,t have been !

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My life is so biszare .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im still living with it.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I write beautiful poetry .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

One cannot live in the past .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was 9 years of age.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

When she asked me how she looked .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So whats the point in blame.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Ive learnt so much.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Who then, do I blame.?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We were not on the streets..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I will be 64.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

We all went to grammer schools

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She found it foreign!.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But ive been too sick for many years..

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why did i forgive my father ?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

And i lived it daily.

So, i spoilt her more .

I don,t even have a pension.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Would this be the day?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She married twice! .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I never cut or harmed myself..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He knew the spot.

But it wasn’t much.

She was in good health!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

It was going to be , some day.

My family never makes their pension either.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I was very sick at this time too.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Put me off passion for life!!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Comes on , in middle age.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Was to survive, this bastard.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I think the readers, may guess!

Especially a lifetime of it.

She loved him until the end.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was scared of men, in general

I know ,a lot about trauma.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was seconnd youngest,

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

What did i know ?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I could never make a relationship work though!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

(And it was in our own minds.)